5 days away for Christmas
No tree
There is no gifts
I am sitting on my bed thinking of were my spirit went
I see a light on the candle burning next to me
Soon it will be gone
Everything is so nostalgic
Darkness takes over my soul
The feeling of emptiness
I am tired of my wet eyes
Dealing with myself has become my biggest issue
I need a break
I clean my place
I brought new lights
I got a tree
I got the gifts
I still felt wrong
Christmas is not what I think it was
I never knew
One day till Christmas is now
My mood is out
The smell of food is so familiar
The place is warm
One hug and a little present under the tree
Is a picture of the best memories of my life
Suddenly I understand
This Christmas was not the most bright but in found my light and part of myself in it.